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//Saturday, February 26, 2011 2:00 PM

Stewpid boy.

Say things clearer so I can understand can or not?

//Friday, February 25, 2011 5:03 PM

Thank God it's still not too late.

//Thursday, February 24, 2011 12:35 PM

My job

Finally settled on a part time job waitressing in a restaurant/bar. I wouldn't say the first two nights were easy. They were stressful and my colleagues were all asking me why I so cheong. I told them, give me one more week I slack allllll for yall. LOL. The first day, I had two male colleagues (good right), but who were younger than me =________= coaching me and showing me the ropes to serve customers. One of them kept drilling into me instructions while the other one taught me the tricks of the trade. They were both fun, really. But nothing much in common though. East siders.

Last night was more tiring though, I had another male colleague coaching me. He was an ex society member but he was easy going and he made me relax throughout the night and I really appreciate that. We both made jokes and there was a lady at table no.64 who was crying while composing messages on her phone and he would be telling me he was whatsapping her and telling her that he won't be going home with her tonight so that was why she was crying and that she would need to learn her lesson because she's a bad woman hahahahahahah really bullshit.

Above all, I would like to thank the Lord for keeping me steady and composed even though I made serious mistakes (I will most probably not get over them anytime soon), and also for the colleagues who have been teaching me and guiding me throughout the two nights. Without You Lord, I wouldn't have survived even one night at all. Thank You Lord.

//Wednesday, February 23, 2011 12:15 PM

Yay for the Lord's message.

‎"Every morning, take one full glass of gratitude, when getting to work, take one spoon of peace, every hour, take one pill of patience, one cup of brotherhood and one glass of humility. When getting home, take one dose of love, when getting to bed, take two caplets of clear conscience."

//Monday, February 21, 2011 12:08 AM

Hone st ly

We ne ed to ta lk.

W hy do yo u al ways not ta ke the in itia tive to ta lk to me?

I am get ting TIRED even if yo u ar e not.

//Saturday, February 19, 2011 3:14 PM

I am choosing to be silent until the right time comes for me to spill everything.

// 1:46 AM

Yes Lord.

I will continue to trust in You, that Your plans for us are greater than we think it would be.

Even if we do not get what we want, Lord, let everything You lead us to, lead us back to You always.

That is the greatest path that we can all take. :)

//Wednesday, February 16, 2011 3:13 PM

Live in the present, and you shall have peace.

//Tuesday, February 15, 2011 1:59 AM

Finally crossed the huge hurdle.

The huge screwed up hurdle.

When two years ago I wanted to quit it.

When a year ago, I was encouraged to quit, again.

God, what was I thinking, without You to slap me back on the right course, I would have been nowhere near salvation.

Thank You Lord.

//Monday, February 14, 2011 4:03 PM

I'm not used to having someone I can call my best friend, or my BFF.

It seems so... temporary.

I want and I know I have friends who will stay by me till the end.

I just don't like to impose titles or boundaries on them.

//Saturday, February 12, 2011 12:33 AM

I tend to harbor scary thoughts at times.

Many times a day, they are divisive. And they want to pull me out of my comfort zone.

//Thursday, February 10, 2011 12:59 PM

Bee Itch.

I will never forget how we met and how you knew he was going to be there and you felt like it's okay if I rather not know about his existence there and then by diverting my attention away when I already knew something was wrong.

But it wasn't okay for me.

And now I want to gloat at how many rounds you have turned with him and you always lingered around. He didn't. Or he didn't know how.

And you are exerting ridiculous expectations on him. Who are you to even impose such requests on him when we are all of the same level?

You are as scary as a cat in the night, creeping, always on the prowl, defensive, but on the surface you can act like you don't care at all. In your heart, there is an empty room, but you had never free it up before to anyone who is worth it in your definition.

Ironically. Bee Itch is for you and you already seemed to have acknowledged this title.

//Tuesday, February 8, 2011 5:10 PM

Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.

-Mitch Albom "Five People You Meet In Heaven"

No matter how much you think what you do or say have no effect on other people so long as it only affects yourself, you are wrong.

//Monday, February 7, 2011 1:45 AM

Love without truth is blind, truth without love is poison.

Sometimes I waver between these two.

I am blind and hurtful.

But only because I am stating thoughts that are straight out of my head.

And so maybe it's unwise like that.

//Sunday, February 6, 2011 8:17 PM

The one day I cease to be myself, I cease to be happy. I cease to be free.

//Thursday, February 3, 2011 10:18 PM

Reminds me of you.

“A man who lies to himself, and believes his own lies, becomes unable to recognize truth, either in himself or in anyone else, and he ends up losing respect for himself and for others. When he has no respect for anyone, he can no longer love, and in him, he yields to his impulses, indulges in the lowest form of pleasure, and behaves in the end like an animal in satisfying his vices. And it all comes from lying-to others and to yourself.”

—	Fyodor Dostoevsky

//Tuesday, February 1, 2011 3:06 PM

1ST DAY OF FEBRUARY.

AND I HAVE SENT IN MY APPLICATION TO NIE VIA NTU.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DROP A PRAYER FOR ME ALRIGHT THAT I MIGHT BE ACCEPTED.

THANKEW THANKEW THANKEW!!!!!!