If I were to study harder, reflected on myself a bit more and not be so foolish, perhaps maybe right now I won't be as scarred as I would be if I were to close my heart for a while longer.

If I had used my brain more than I used my heart, I wouldn't have caused hurt and alienated myself, and giving in to my own weaknesses rather than building up my own strength.

If I had a clear mind on where I wanted to go, I wouldn't have been so down in the dumps for a period of time figuring out my future more than living in the present.

If I had more sense and acknowledged all of my friendships and relationships and not put down one so as to build another, perhaps right now I wouldn't feel as insecure still.

But all these made me who I am, and who I am going to become.

Realizing all these isn't too late for me, I know, thankfully I am much more aware right now.

Because He has ways of making you find out things about yourself and what you would be like.

For that, I am thankful. (: