The more I realize how much you don't love me. Fine, granted that you have been concerned about my life, but get real, you have never been in my life to talk things out with me, and I am sorry to say that I knew you because you had been the last thread of hope of the love I lost. When we go out to talk, do you know how much I got hurt because you kept bringing him up about in our topics? And suddenly he can be near us when we are out together. Coincidence? God's will? Or on purpose? I don't know. Just know that, you were hurt, and that was why I was hurt together with you. Maybe you loved me in your ways which you thought was best, but again, I feel that you also have too much going on in your life, maybe sometimes I felt that the thoughts you projected out didn't seem right to me. And don't justify your love because you want to buy me material things, I can't be bought over by material things. And the money I owe you from long before, I will definitely return it to you, it's not right to eat lavishly out of your hard earned money.

And your friend, is not a man. You know it already. If he was ever a man with deep thoughts, he would have respected me and want to make an effort with me long ago. What nonsense he was saying about him making a serious effort if he were to meet me when he turns 25-26? Bullshit. If he didn't want to now, he wouldn't do so 7 years later. And what he had done to me, he would also do it with other girls, because something in him hasn't healed yet, even if he appeared to move on and not care, that is because he also doesn't want to face up to himself and there's no one who thinks of him worthy enough to help him out. All he can do is to love worldly things because the world can accept him with no strings attached.

Lastly, I forgive both of you and those of your friends who hurt me before and only wanted to use me. Life is short. I can't waste anymore time in unforgiveness and unhappiness. And if you are reading this, I know you will one day, I wish you God's love and peace and happiness, and do all little things with great love. (: