kill

//Saturday, February 27, 2010 3:33 AM

No Matter Where You Go, I Won't Be Very Far.

No, there is nothing wrong with being yourself and when everyone is sniggering and taunting you because you aren't like them; you ain't them at all.

Sometimes I feel you don't care as much. And I'd sham an eh-okeh smile and go about my days as usual.

//Friday, February 26, 2010 3:41 AM

Very VERY unrelated.

I think I will settle being poor and be able to open up to others all my life, rather than being so career oriented and closing up your shell, can I pleaseeeeeee??

//Thursday, February 25, 2010 2:12 AM

Spaghetti-O's.

Talking to Sharon about commitments and stuff, made me think back to years ago when my guts were deeply rooted in drama and church work. The inequality of effort I gave to school and church, and also the friends I chose, and the friends who chose me back then in secondary school; I didn't spend enough time with them.

Was it all worth it? Now that my roots were pulled out unwillingly. Would I have given my all to retrieve something which I had lost? A close bond, a tight knot. The crumbs I chose to drop on the ground and let them be devoured.

Why do I feel like I am churning out an essay rather than a personal monologue? Eeeee.

//Tuesday, February 23, 2010 5:01 PM

Times like this, I feel so disgusted with myself. I wish I can control it. I will have to, I must.

// 2:08 PM

Sorry, I don't think that you are a good friend to him, or he to anyone, right now.

// 12:29 AM

LENT

As Father T. preached during homily, Lent is not about sacrifices all the time, it's not about fasting from your favourite food, staying away from the internet, it's not about praying more, if we do all these, it's defeating the purpose of Lent. He said that, during Lent, we should let something grow within us, and all throughout Sunday night till now, I've been thinking of what to allow to grow within me.

If I say love, it's so cliche. But that is what our faith is all about, yes? All types of love to be covered, not just the normal one between Man and Woman. Love for your friends, family, classmates, colleagues. All these, become so hard, because the love for your own self is too great to overwhelm. Once you push through, and learn to embrace them with all your heart, you'd understand completely, what it means to love. It is to be hurt, to hurt, but amidst everything, you know that, there will be someone out there for you even when all else fails you.

//Wednesday, February 17, 2010 1:39 AM

We don't always get what we expect. Perfections never come in a full package, there's bound to be defects and flaws.

And I've decided, not to patronize people's feelings, and treat them truthfully, give them the recognition they deserve.

//Thursday, February 11, 2010 2:22 PM

Gives Me Hope

My grandpa passed away on April 2nd 2009.

Before my grandpa passed he pulled his oxygen mask off his face and lifted his hand up to his mouth.

We thought he was going through pain. But instead he blew 3 kisses to my grandma, smiled, and passed away.

RIP Grandpa i love you and You GMH.

Reading this site can make you cry like what man. Hahahahahahaha.

//Tuesday, February 9, 2010 4:08 PM

This isn't a start.

It's a continuation.