Because all along I felt like I gave too much, and I took and demanded so much at the same time

All I wanted was to affect your life, even if it was just a little bit.

But since we parted ways, I feel that you had never once appreciated my existence.

I wanted to be appreciated by you alone. At that time.

And all you gave me in return when it was not supposed to matter anymore, was hurt and more hurt.

Tell me, why are you still in my head?

And if you are in my head, you are definitely still in my heart.

It is ridiculous to some of my friends that I could feel so much sadness for you and not suck it up.

Am I supposed to meet their expectations so I could live better?

Of course, this life is mine to lead, it is my choice to live it, good or bad.

But, the bottomline is, I am only living for God. I am only trying my best nowadays to be faithful, for I am only human, and finite, I am disposable at the dispense of others and I am trying to love those whom God has sent down.

But you, were such a painful lesson to learn.

A lesson which I never forgotten and you never took to heart.