Times like these.
I feel very weak because of the damage I caused and felt.
I want to die for my mistakes and carry the mistakes others made and die together with them, so everything can be reduced to zilch.
So no one has to take the blame, or blame anyone, because I am dead, everyone can be sad and grieve. And after they grieve everyone can heal.
But honestly, I am actually hoping to achieve something after I die? For the people that are deemed to be not worth it at all?
Such ambitious hopes.
Perhaps I will just die slowly.