I don't mean to be harsh. That was never my intention.
But this is not my season to douse myself with time wasting and meaningless chatter.
I need to make the best of everyday.
Until I meet someone whom my heart clicks with over time, I don't really wish to foray into another relationship. Not even the short term ones. I had my fun, I had my fair share of hurt and hurting other people now, but this has got to stop. To me, it's wrong; it's okay to get to know the person better, but going into a relationship without a head start of where you both are going towards? That's just bad.
The irony of this love I am handling now, is that though my heart doesn't feel as much, what I did was more than what my heart could handle.
Right now, all I need is to meet new people, do crazy things with them, make new memories, fight this war, get all tired out, but still happy, spend some time doing me things, and look forward to Mad As A Hatter, my first OPI nail polish.

Tell me, is it a sin to be a girl? Hah.

LISS yesterday was amazing. I have never felt this way with Him for so long already. <3

Finally, it doesn't matter anymore. I am committing to this decision, and this thought.