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Bare Neccessities /
dot leong.shambles and sort of liberty surpassed your eyes forfeited the game All I Can Say, I Should Have Said /
Burdees /
annabel
andrew
carmen
debbie
dottoo
enid
justin
meichen
Run Away While We Still Have Time /
February 2010March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 Honey and the Moon
Dreams become visions and visions become reality. My old new favourite song Nobody should ever feel this way When you trifle with danger, don't forget there's me. EH HEH. No Matter Where You Go, I Won't Be Very Far. Very VERY unrelated. Spaghetti-O's. Times like this, I feel so disgusted with myself. ... Sorry, I don't think that you are a good friend to... Credits /
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//Sunday, March 7, 2010 11:54 PM
AYE. SHIZZ LA.
I want to feel the intimacy of a family again.
I haven't felt this way for so many years already, till today. I am like a chip off the old block, it needs a sturdy plank of wood to be a block, I can be, much unnecessary, I can be hacked at and left to decompose. Not saying that I am being treated that badly. But, sometimes, I guess I am much un-needed, because I feel that way. But, in all these years, I've just been absent. Absent from all the events that the closest I can get to them is during CNY.
Today, looking at all my cousins, so grown up, so different from who we were before. When we were young, we used to sleep over at each other's places, played and sometimes we used to be mean to this small cousin whom we didn't like much. (omg.) My eldest cousin of all, asked us how we will be like 5 years from now. I didn't answer. My three cousins said that they would have a car, they would start an entrepreneurship, they would have finished their studies and working. And I, in my mind, I thought I had the most disappointing answer of all. I want to start a family. So yes it's unrealistic, my age then will come across to many as too young, too unaccomplished, too juvenile. And considering that even at this age I still haven't been able to resolve a passion, I might as well end up getting shot at by society. So yes, looking at them, seeing the way they grew up, has been totally unexpected for me. From the girl who used to hold so much flare and potential, so full of it that it could propel a hot air balloon, I can say now that I deflated so much that it could never fly as high as it should ever again. |
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